Feel Empty T_T

For this 2 week I feel empty inside me..
I don't know what really happen to me..
I miss so many people..
Hmm..

Kind awkward actually..
I've been care so much about my friend princess@my scandal..
and I feel W.T.H. am I doing..
I'm not the person that should care about her..
there were other people that can take care her..
okay fullll stooopppp that enough about her...

Today 15/12/2010..
"Cik M' last day for her STPM..
I cant't got through her phone..
and I really want to know how she feel at this time..
I miss her actually but the fact is I can't tell her how I really miss her...
T_T

SCANDAL??? Hahahaha... ^_^

statement yg x bole blah hahahahaha..
ni lah sbhgian peristiwa sejak member aq si princess(bkn nm sbnar)
pindah masuk asrama yg aq tolong taking care bila warden dgn fellow xde..
sblom ni, msa sem lpas lg aq dgn dia mmg x rapat langsung..
nak ckap pon mcm xde point..
sjak dia pindah masuk tmpat aq..
aq mmg selalu lepak dgn dia..
smpaikan adik2 aq yg lain dah bising kta aq ni berat sebelah..
lpas tu dh timbol gossip kta aq dgn dia ehem2..
mula2 aq dgr rsa x selesa jgak la..
tpi lama2 aq dgr pon nak pecah perut..

pda dr aq..
dia bukan utk aq..
lgpon aq dgn dia hnya bole jd kwn..
lbh pda tu aq rsa x..
ciri2 perempuan yg aq inginkan xde pda dia..
ciri2 tu hnya ada pd 'Cik M'..
setakat ni jela aq yg aq cer pasal aq kena scandal...

^_^

Think positive

I must think positive..

That's the most important thing I should do..

Although I'm a bit confuse & feeling lazy late now..

I must wake up myself..

I just can't sit back and relax..

I've to do something to improve myself..

Although my final exam will start next year..

I can't play anymore..

I must work hard & smart..

I want to get the Dean's Award for each semester...

I want to make my family proud at me..

May Allah bless us all...

^_^

Terbaik ar...

jumaat minggu lepas mmg terbaik..
ada jgak yg kena prank dgn aq..
hahahaha..
thanks to Azril n Hilman jd jgak prank si Zik..
dan x pasai2 si fazreen@wak ketari kena prank dgn aq..
hahaha...

program utk aritu aq g Politeknik Kulim jumpa member aq msa dok Puchong..
g sowg2 bwa keta..
hihihi..
smpai sana lepak2, sembang2 dan yg sewaktu dgnnya..
lpas smbhyg jumaat aq trus gerak g sbrg jaya umah Azril..
smpai sana tunggu Azril dgn Hilman smpai..
lpas tu trus gerak g amik member aq sowg lg si Zik kat Matriks..
yg aq plak dpt call dr ayah aq swuh blk sat tlg beli gas dgn simen..
dah abis beli smua brg tu g umah zik plak..
bajet nak tgk wayang malam tu tpi x jd..
last2 g mkn char koay teow..
smpat la jgak aq bedal 2 pinggang char koay teow mlm tu..
lpas abis mkn trus g tmpat shisha plak..
smpai sana siap parking..
Si Azril order shisha..
msa kat kdai char koay teow aq bajet x nak mkn oblong..
last2 aq order jgak..
minum plak air limau ais dgn babrican peach..

lpas abis byar aq pon hantar si hilman dlu..
sbb hilman still underage lg..
lgpon dia junior sek aq dlu..
lpas tu lepak berek jap..
maka terjadi prank keatas wak..
sembang2 jap aq trus chow blk umah..
lgpon time tu nak dkt pkul 12 dah..
aq rehat x lg..
satu hri suntuk punya bwa keta..
bsok tu plak aq nak blk tmpat blajar aq..

ok la ini yg bole aq mengarut itk post kali ni..
hahaha..
live the life to the fullest guys..
May Allah bless you...
^_^

It freaks me out...

I'm totally feel fricking bad at this moment..
I can't get my mind straight..
all of this unsangkarable things happen at the moment I hate it so much..

At this time, I'm totally miss her so much..
I manage to talk with 'Cik M' this evening..
she's doing revision for tomorrow's paper at that time..
good luck..
May Allah bless you...

Another thing is..
I still can't believe what I heard from my kazen mira..
her bff are asking about me..
the truth is I feel funny and excite..
but the things is..
I had done the stupids mistake..
tried to get to know her..
and know I felt what the f***
what I've done to myself..
I DON'T WANT TO PLAY OTHER PEOPLE FEELING!!!

I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN!!!

Confused... T.T

Helppp Meeeeeee!!!!!!!
rasa mcm nak jerit minx tolong je..
bila dpt satu story dr kazen aq miera..
bff dia yg nm "Cik S" asyik tnya pasal aq..

Arrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
oooopppsss...
terlupa plak 'Cik S' adalah gadis yg x sengaja aq nak kenal..
entah mcm mn aq tetiba nak berkwan dgn dia..
aq leh kenal dgn dia pon psal asyik bahan kan kazen aq miera dlm fb..
aq sebenarnya hmpir ptus asa dgn 'Cik M' dan entah mcm mn aq rsa nak kenal dgn 'Cik S'...

tpi sebetul2nya pada time ni jgak aq msih confuse..
aq rsa happy bila ada org tnya pasal aq..
tpi pda msa yg aq tkut aq lukakan perasaan org n perasaan aq jgak..

dan yg sebenarnya aq x bole nak tipu yg aq sebenarnya .........
hihihihihi ^_^

Pak Cik x malu ker???

Aq rsa pak cik yg menjerit mcm $*(%Y#$ mmg x layak aq panggil pak cik utk status umur dia..
bole menjerit kat announcer, sedangan announcement dok kat tmpat lain..
yg pak cik tu menjerit psal train delay..
jerit mau sebatu dgr..
pak cik tu ingat kl sentral ni stadium bukit jalil kot..
satu hal lg, jerit kuat2 tpi dok menyorok blkg kerusi urut..
pa la nak jdi dgn org mcm tu..
ish3...

I don't know...

Finally I've finished my midterm yesterday..
I would say that I haven't do it well..
Feel bad actually..
I should be in my home wright now but I don't have enough money to buy a first class ticket back to Penang..
So I hang out at my uncle's house for a night..
I going back to Penang tonight..

tpi aq msih rsa beban pd diri aq..
beban yg aq sndri x thu..
maybe beban tu adalah prsaan yg aq sndri x dpt nafikan lg..
aq rindukan 'Cik M'..
skang ni dia tgh menghadapi STPM..
rsa risau akan dia sentiasa ada pd fikiran aq..
tetiba satu perasaan yg agak ganjil tetiba muncul menganggu fikiran aq..
perkataan "JEALOUS" tetiba hadir dlm kamus hidup aq..
aq x pernah ada rsa perasaan seperti ini..
first time dlm hidup aq..
aq rsa jealous bla ada org pm kat wall fb dia..
rsa geli hati pon ada bla teringat..
tpi skrg aq makin tkut..
aq tkut kehilangan dia..
I've never fallen in love..
And I'm afraid of losing her..
I can't barely accept that..
I'm not a strong person...
T.T

Oh Menarik Gila

Thanx to my buddy james, I'm going to Shout Awards this year..
hahahaha..
I'm still can't believe it..
but I'm still waiting for another news from my friends about "something"..
ok that for tomorrow...

For this coming Monday I'm gonna sit for my midterm..
so I have to sacrifice my happy time to study this weekend...

Talking about exam..
'Cik M' gonna sit her first STPM paper this monday..
which you luck..
May Allah bless you...

^_^

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha

Yea..
bsok raya Qorban..
tpi feel raya korban dah x mcm dlu..
msa aq kecik2 dlu bole kta antara muka bbdak wajib dtg kcau lembu sehari sblom hari raya..
tpi smpai ari ni blom pernah kena ligan dgn lembu...

Di hari raya nya pulak..
bla dh abis smbhyg rya, mcm pelesit kuar dri surau..
mmn x nya, nak tukar uniform ar..
x kan nak sembelih lembu pkai baju melayu kot..
bla dh smpai kat port lembu menapak..
pak aji2 n member pak aq smua dok pakat asah pisau, parang, kapak dan yg sewaktu dengannya..
aq dgn membe aq yg len dh amik post kitorg..
bhgian angkut anggota lembu yg dh dilapah dgn kebumikan..
yg paling best time angkut bhgian lembu yg bru kena lapah..
rsa mcm bru kuar dr dewan bedah..
yg pak aji2 kat post bersiang dok tunggu mcm singa..
smpai2 trus angkat sangkut kat khemah guna cakuk..
maka pak aji yg dok menapak kat khemah tu pon melapah la daging2 tersebut..
tpi time yg paling x best time proses usus..
perghh.. aroma dia jgn citer ar..
sejam aq x tgk makanan dgn air yg ada kat surau..
tpi bla dh lpas beberapa ekor..
bru bole..
tpi satu part yg aq x kan lupa..
cuci perut lembu..
rsa mcm pegang towel good morning yg besar gedabak..

inilah sebahagian kecil pengalaman hidup aq di hari raya Qorban...
^_^

Cik M

aq x sangka yg diri aq ni begitu rindukan dia..
smpai uat aq tersnyum walaupun hnya dpt dgr suara dia..
walaupun aq hnya mengenali dia melalui alam maya..
tpi aq sentiasa rsa yg dia sentiasa dkt dgn diri aq..
aq xkan lupa smpai bila2..
aq pernah menanggis time aq call gtau dia yg ayah aq ada sakit jantung..
waktu tu dia bnyak bg smgt kpd aq..

aq pernah baca satu artikel berkenaan infatuation or love..
bila aq baca artikel tu smpai abis pada mulanya aq rsa aq hnya minat pd dia..
tpi lama2 aq mula rsa yg diri aq ni menyangi dirinya..
pd msa sama jiwa aq mula meronta utk berterus terang dgn dirinya..
tpi aq pjuk diriku, yg perkenalan antara aq dgn "cik m" yg hmpir sethun x bermakna aq sudah cukup kenal akan dirinya..
tpi antara rakan2 perempuan yg aq kenal dan rapat dan selalu aq jumpa, blom pernah lg aq terhutang budi..
dgn "cik m" aq terhutang budi sgt2..

Aq rsa aq dh mula jatuh cinta...

miss her

I don't know what to do..

I 'm fucking stress out at this moment..

I haven't heard her voice for a time being..

I'm totally can't give full concentration in my study for this week..

I'm totally miss her so much!!!

But the were still funny things happen around me, I've been gossip with a friend..

just because i always hang out with her..

Wargh kargh kargh

fyi i don't give a damn to those person who make this gossip...

p/s: mulut manusia tak sama dgn mulut tempayan... 

aq nak tulis dlm bahasa melayu pulak

post kali ni aq nak tulis pasal kisah dri aq..
dlm sejarah hidup aq berkawan, insan yang pertama jd member aq sa kecik2 dlu seorg perempuan..
aq sndri pon x thu mcm mn bole ngam dia, tpi apa yg aq ingat aq dgn dia kwn dr tadika lg..
msa aq kecik2 dlu dok umah kg, biler dah besar pnjang bru dok umah tmn..
aq dgn dia msa kecik mmg ngam giler ar, umah tok dia plak blkg umah aq..
inilah sbhgian kcil sjerah aq brkwn dgn perempuan...

tpi perkara yg sebenar yang ingin aq cer kan adalah kisah mengenai dr aq jgak dgn kwn fb aq..
aq kenal dgn dia melalui fb nephew cousin aq..
msa tu nephew aq ni on9 fb dia guna lappy aq..
msa time bukak tu kuar satu gmbar yg mn member nephew aq ni share kat wall..
entah mcm mn satu suara kecil yg entah dr celah mn dok tengiang2 kat telinga aq swuh kenal dgn salah seorang gadis yg ada dlm gmbar tu..
msa time aq tgk gmbar tu aq still study kat seremban amik bisz management..
(tpi otak aq dh kasi warning yg kepala aq ni x bole msok bab2 bisz, maka aq pon stop study kat kolej tu)
berbalik kpd gadis tdi..
punya la payah nak ingat nm dia psl nak add fb dia
jd aq pon contact blk nephew aq tnya nm yg dia guna dlm fb..
bla dh dpt..
cari punya cari akhirnya dpt jgak..
aq panggil dia 'm', msa aq add fb dia dlm bulan 10 tpi serta merta dia approve..
dekat 2 minggu jgak aq membudin  tunggu dia approve friend request..
akhirnya dia pprove jgak..
bila tgk dkat chat fb aq dia on9, apa tunggu lagi x kan tgk je kot..
maka bermula salam perkenalan antara aq dgn dia...

HARAP MAAF BAHAGIAN-BAHAGIAN PENTING YANG SENTIMENTAL BAGI PENULIS TERPAKSA DISKIP UNTUK SIMPANAN DIRI PENULIS SAHAJA...hihihihihihi ^.^

dan sekarang aq dgn dia dh dekat setahun lebih berkwan..
tpi skang ni aq terpaksa ikut flow dia klu nak contact coz dia skang ni nak STPM..
bila dia hbis nnti bru bole contact selalu..
^.^

I hate hypocrit!!!

i still can't believe what i heard, it happen on the bus when one of my college mate just give a fucking ridiculous reason just to make the bus driver to drove the bus back to our hostel...

Why people make mistake

it is a normal thing in this world when a person make mistake..
because no one in the world are perfect..
but from the mistake then had been done, it's improved the person to become a much better person...